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Wednesday, November 11, 2009 .
8:51 PM

hey,

Been a long while since i've blogged. feel great that life as of now seems to be getting back on track and progressing well. Still got kinks and paradoxes to solve and to think about. I'm really going to blast out my thoughts here- i warn you readers that it might get a little harsh.

On love, relationships

I know people who really want to get married and have a girlfriend, wife or spouse by 21. I don't disagree with their aspirations and dreams..for me, i think love is just. temporary. I dont know how to describe it. I remember in bible college, a really great guy told me once that human love is born fickle. tainted by sin, superficial. God's love is so intense and burning, He's willing to put you thru trials and suffering to get you better..more of the fickle stuff actually is more applicable in context.

I'm single for a long time, yet i've got a really stubborn, jaded view about relationships. I am skeptical about bonding in matrimony..love can last, but can human love last on? People tell me that it does, 50 years on and they still see people holding hands and stuff. I argue that it's superficial and just habitual..just a really long one off thing.

Maybe its just the really down expriences ive gone thru that make me such a skeptic. But i just think love is beyond holding hands, getting a girlfriend, happiness. Yes, happiness is important..but it starts from responsibility in a commitment. We should..we must operate as a unit. A relationship between a man and a woman must be dedicated..a mutual support to each other. Arguments happen yes, but those are simply incidences i believe God put in to strengthen the bond.

In conclusion..why do people, youths etc. just look at the superficial? maybe make fun of each other's crushes is fun, but pushing it? living in a school environment whose student leaders 'advocate' gossip? call me short tempered and a freak with a skewed perspective, but seriously..i'm getting a slight frown with all this stuff circling around my environment, my how you call..extended personal space.

I dont know, maybe i just need to think more about love, and by extension, emotions. I don't feel the 'fun' that the general population i interact with feel and embrace, the love and the hype. I see myself more engrossed in design, art music games, guitar, work...signs of becoming anti-social? lol.

scary, but i'd rather think i'm going through another phase.

Well, that's enough for today. need to finish off some designs and stuff. check back for more updates. Ignore my previous post. it was made in absolute ignorance and uncare for the views of my parents

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Billyzheng.
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