Been on the run these few days at reorganization..so i haven't been blogging!

I believe these past few months (holiday, actually) have been a period of finding myself again. I've begun to take in alot of stress from school, and people (mostly people in general), and i've realised i've been taking out stress in the wrong ways; in the form of arguments, shouting, exessive gaming, eating, what not. I've gotten disillusioned with people and systems.







Ie, an incessant issue in my head is the problem with school.
Ngee Ann Polytechnic, School of Humanities, Business and Social Entreprise.

Call me absurd or misguided, but i think being in the pioneer batch? it's both exciting and irritating. Exciting because you know you're the pilot episode of an amazing series and season to come (in the social world, that is.) Irritating becuase i feel that we're not being worked on very well, and because of the people i'm with.

I'm just not in place with a bunch of fellas who'd really like to be elsewhere. I've asked and interviewed many peers on my level, and most of them would like to be somewhere else, doing something else entirely. Most have no choice but to come here.

Also? i just don't like how we are taught. What do i learn at the end of the day? I learnt so far about social enteprises and their concepts. I learnt about economics, its workings, theories, financial management, IT, Human resource, Statistics, Accouting and so on and forth.

But i haven't learnt anything about enteprise. Why start one? what's good about it. how to start it. What makes it tick, and what exactly do we have to do in order to make one? That's what i expect to learn, that what i wanted to see in this course come about.

Hell, i was pissed when i got into Business and Social Enteprise. I was totally on for mass comm and Film + Media, but i convinced myself that God put me in social enteprise for a reason, and i realised that hey! it isn't so bad after all.

But once realisng that things are okay, i get fed up with the system..being very open and uninstructive. My stand is: although Poly is a place for learning, especially student-led and open, I think lecturers or our mentors, should allow themselves to give some strong instruction, stir up some passion in the students for the things that they do. and definetly, improve the curriculum and system to be more direct and straightforward, rather than containing mostly theory and concepts.




and this is just one issue i face out of many. Religion, human nature- maybe you'll see me post more in the future. now, Back to the topic on hand-


I feel that well, i'm spending these few months or days sorting these issues out and finding myself again. I've lost alot of personality and idealism in me when the stress kicked in, and i'm inspired to find it back.





anyway, i've done some packing this week, gone to the gym, modified my diet to accomodate healthier foods.

Unhappy with IS choice of events managments, i realised that i should have taken something more substatial.

Trying to lost more weight and gain more fitness/muscle/the man factor. without steroids. Hear that bryan? :P

I'm planning to hang out with friends, clear out my room, explore more music and wait for John Mayer's new album to come out! can't wait to get it done and over with.