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Sunday, May 31, 2009 .
12:26 AM

Just penning down some of my thoughts here-

It's my birthday, i'm 18. I've dreamt of this moment since young and now it seems so surreal. i'm where i never, ever imagined to be ten years ago. It's a totally different, powerful feeling..that all things are being moved, being positioned by a Higher Power.

It's this same sense of dispassion i feel when i get results for major life changing events..like how i got o's, i know God's hand is moving in my life towards a great future.

like hey..i slipped..i might not be as calm, as spiritually centered as i used to be. I may not be totally on or 'on fire'.

I may not be lifting His name up as i used to...

but God still loves me from the inside out. that's what that matters..

It's not just a happy feeling, its not just assurance. its total stillness in God's presence. right here, right now. And i'm inspired again, i can feel the strength in my hands, like that strength when i first started changing with God inside, the strength when i first started serving.

I got it, and i will use that strengh to be better.

I might not be physically as fit, as perfect as God's temple. But i'll try my best with the strength that i have.

I might not be as mentally sharp, as strong as Christ, i may not renew my mind every day..but i'll try the best with the strength that i have.

I might not be as spiritually centered as possible..but i am assured with Christ there, i can do it. I'll use my strength to draw closer to Him.

so..18 years..

other people might scream out loud..drink, go party..and yeah i've felt that i wanted to do that too. but hey..all i feel right now is a great stillness and thankfullness for God's love in my life, the family He gave me, the friends and mentors out there (thank you all for being such an awesome part in my life.).

So here's to you, all of you. Jesus, Holy Spirit, Father, teachers past and present, mum & dad, family, and friends.

Best birthday i've had so far.

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Billyzheng.
18 -> 19
31 May 91
Christian/Peace Advocate
Ngee Ann polytechnic
business & social enterprise

Think about me as someone who loves Music; especially rock, jazz, blues, in love with artists like John Mayer and Lady GaGa. Someone who's into the arts; Religion, Social Sciences, History, Theatre, Graphic design/Videography/Publications/Art
And definetly someone who's into guitars.

Wants:
to be a better me.(:
fit
Studio Recording Kit: An Awesome computer, Good recording software, new amplifier, soundproof room.
Tickets to John Mayer's concerts/Get on the mayercraft carrier.
Fantastic GPA
Arts and Social Science SMU/NTU
Masters, if possible
Steal one of em ngee ann buggies and drive em around town.

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