Sunday, March 29, 2009 .
Mood: Serious
Location: Home
Listening to: nothing
Past few days: Spent some time in malacca, did some shopping with dad. Went around with him to see the Admiral Cheng Ho museum. I'm not really in the mood to post about it now, but i'll let you guys know what happens in another post.
Today, i went to City Harvest Church and heard Pastor Phil Pringle preach.
He spoke about trials and tribulations, and how we should view these trials and tribulations.
That they are there to show us that God is preparing us to be better, stronger, faster, more powerful.
I am grateful to have heard that he was coming. I feel that this opportunity to hear him preach was God given
And it was a God given circumstance to hear about tribulations. especially what i've been going through.
You know, i wonder if this is what it was meant to be. me in City harvest Church.
I feel disillusionised by being 'on fire' for God, being a good youth, being a 'leader'.
I CAN'T JUST TALK. I NEED TO WALK. I NEED TO FIND A PLACE WHERE I CAN PLACE MY HEART AND LISTEN TO TEACHERS, AND GO INTO THE WORLD WITH A HEART AND KNOWLEDGE THAT JESUS SAVES ALL.
I DONT WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE. I DONT WANT TO HAVE FUN. I WANT TO LISTEN, RECIEVE THE WORD OF GOD. I WANT TO LEARN.
i feel SO fustrated at people sometimes. Young 'christians'.
i was having a conversation with a good friend today.
i hear a thirteen year old asked on her blog if it's okay to have SEX with her boyfriend, and she's a christian.
i hear christian girls and boys in abusive relationships cling onto their hurtful 'laogongs' and such.
and sometimes i dont understand why they do it and i really turn to hate them..you profess to love God and serve his house, but what about him and you? your relationship's getting in the way and you can't decide if you want to put God first..
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND HAVE SEX WITH A STRANGER.
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND GET DRUNK AND SMOKE UNDERAGE.
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND CREATE SUFFERING FOR PEOPLE YOU 'LOVED'
but i realise that i can't judge them but only say my stand and minister to them..and then pray. sometimes i wish i can..be God and change them. but i know i can't. that He has a higher purpose for them, that this happens for a reason.
i need a revelation. today im starting to read leadership exellence, hearing pastor Kong, Tan, Phil's sermons.
these few days, i need to know. i need to seek God, i need to have a revelation. i need to have bible studies. i need to understand.
God is there. people are suffering. His people have got it wrong. how can i help?
He spoke about trials and tribulations, and how we should view these trials and tribulations.
That they are there to show us that God is preparing us to be better, stronger, faster, more powerful.
I am grateful to have heard that he was coming. I feel that this opportunity to hear him preach was God given
And it was a God given circumstance to hear about tribulations. especially what i've been going through.
You know, i wonder if this is what it was meant to be. me in City harvest Church.
I feel disillusionised by being 'on fire' for God, being a good youth, being a 'leader'.
I CAN'T JUST TALK. I NEED TO WALK. I NEED TO FIND A PLACE WHERE I CAN PLACE MY HEART AND LISTEN TO TEACHERS, AND GO INTO THE WORLD WITH A HEART AND KNOWLEDGE THAT JESUS SAVES ALL.
I DONT WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE. I DONT WANT TO HAVE FUN. I WANT TO LISTEN, RECIEVE THE WORD OF GOD. I WANT TO LEARN.
i feel SO fustrated at people sometimes. Young 'christians'.
i was having a conversation with a good friend today.
i hear a thirteen year old asked on her blog if it's okay to have SEX with her boyfriend, and she's a christian.
i hear christian girls and boys in abusive relationships cling onto their hurtful 'laogongs' and such.
and sometimes i dont understand why they do it and i really turn to hate them..you profess to love God and serve his house, but what about him and you? your relationship's getting in the way and you can't decide if you want to put God first..
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND HAVE SEX WITH A STRANGER.
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND GET DRUNK AND SMOKE UNDERAGE.
YOU CAN'T BE A CHRISTIAN AND CREATE SUFFERING FOR PEOPLE YOU 'LOVED'
but i realise that i can't judge them but only say my stand and minister to them..and then pray. sometimes i wish i can..be God and change them. but i know i can't. that He has a higher purpose for them, that this happens for a reason.
i need a revelation. today im starting to read leadership exellence, hearing pastor Kong, Tan, Phil's sermons.
these few days, i need to know. i need to seek God, i need to have a revelation. i need to have bible studies. i need to understand.
God is there. people are suffering. His people have got it wrong. how can i help?
