Monday, February 9, 2009 .
hey.
Going through another phase of change again, well maybe its the exams but i dont know.
It's just this feeling..i'm inspired to work hard, be direct, be truthful, regardless of how people behave.
I dont know, recently i've been really fed up with trying to speak to please people, trying to go on with the varnished language of the adult world. where words twist and turn..and conversations only carry maybe 30% of the intended meaning?
Recently i've been indulging myself alot in places i like, isolating myself in the things that i love: Guitar, Music, Food, the City sights. Every now and then (almost every day in fact,) i find myself studying my tb's and facebooking in either the central library/bugis/esplanade/Somerset areas, or just plain distracted in the arms of my classical guitar.
my tastes seem to be changing, i'm not really interested in the funny things, the childish things and such. I seem to be forgetting about going out to watch movies, playing LAN, hanging around to play CS, going to J8 and Velocity.
Maybe it's a signal of change. I'm growing up and older one more time.
hey, i just want to be direct, express myself. write my change down and see where i'm going.
and i guess the first step is through this blog. yeah, i feel like i'm gonna spend more time typing out my thoughts and chronicling my personal journeys here and there. so yeah, personal reflection, to see where i'm going in music. arts. social enteprise, design, archery.
the second step is prolly going back to poetry and literature writing- i used to love doing that until i got caught up with o's. great way to relieve stress and pen down expression.
maybe the third step is to start with people?
I've yet to talk things out with my crush, and sort things with the people i've got issues with.
Yeah, i know i'm lagging LOADS behind and still in the warped, ugly old fat shell that billy-a-year-ago is..but hey. i can see that i'm shedding some skin here.
Change..
oh yeah, that's why i started with the new skin. not the obsession with john mayer thingy, but hey. its gotta do something with the name continuum. i feel like i'm going through that seamless change it describes.
and yeah, that's where the light is. change.
still pretty undecided, discovering if this whole change in interests thing is really me growing up. i guess we'll see in time, but hey. i'm gonna be 18. time for some more mature things to come and childish things to go.
